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I'm still here. Me, Janet, of the pink daisy icon. My fitness efforts have been somewhat sidelined by massive snow storms (yes, stormS, plural) and a nasty sinus infection. So, when I've felt like making it to yoga or going for a walk, the weather hasn't necessarily been cooperating.
I finally went to the doctor, after my "cold" had been hanging around (unwelcomely) for 2 1/2 weeks, and I found out it was a sinus infection. I've been on antibiotics for just two days now, and I'm feeling much better already. It's easy to forget what "well" feels like when one is sick for so long. Breathing is awesome.
I have gone to yoga twice since I posted last. I didn't feel great, and it was a struggle, but I went. I have to constantly remind myself that I never regret going to yoga. No matter how awful I feel or how badly I want to stay home, I always feel better after yoga. Usually I feel better during yoga.
I have been sticking diligently to staying OFF a diet and following my new mantra, "Eat what you want when you're hungry. Feel what you feel when you're not." I'm mostly doing pretty well. I've had a couple instances of eating more than I knew I physically needed, then feeling bad (physically) afterward. But not too many times.
Mostly I'm starting to learn when my body wants an orange and when it wants oatmeal. Sometimes it wants Girl Scout cookies, and I've let it happen. But when it's not a "treat" or a "punishment" I only eat one or two. There have even been some times when I've stood in the kitchen looking here and there for what my body might want, only to ultimately decide, what it wants is water. Go figure.
In keeping with our system to end author confusion - the star girl will always be me, Regina.
This week I was successful 6 days in wearing my pedometer. And as I would have suspected, my steps per day are way too low.
I was completely NOT successful at dragging myself away from my desk and into the fitness center - which, to review...is right across the hallway. Boo, hiss - bad girl. I know. There are some free Zumba classes going on this month. And as additional motivation -several of my new co-workers are involved in fitness challenges OR are looking for a buddy to attend aqua aerobics or other classes with them....so it seems that I should have plenty of excuses to get with it.
I also did not transport my workout bag with me. Nor did I designate the play-list that will make me shake my groove thing while I am on the treadmill --or maybe that music will just help to distract me.
I've had a lingering headache with some random waves of nausea this week. Generally these feelings don't motivate me to get up and move about a bunch. But I'm sure this will pass and then I'll have to get serious.
On a good note. I had not weighed in for a long, long time. Regardless of feeling like I had overindulged during the holidays - I found that my weight was surprisingly very close to the same place I last found it--I think this is confirmation that if I continue what I am currently doing - I will not see a decrease in my weight. (duh, I know) But also that I seem to be at a natural plateau.
And while I would LOVE to see a smaller number on the scale (or on my jean size) - I am also satisfied with an absolute limit that I will not exceed.
I will enter my pedometer numbers in some kind of chart form at the end of the week so I can track that progress. Also, I was not so good at the food journal - though I find the threat of recording everything helps me to think twice before devouring a treat. For Android users - I did find FatSecret Calorie Counter - it offers a barcode program where you can use your camera to read the nutritional info on things you eat. The first disadvantaged I noticed is that it is really hard to enter homemade food - which I'd rather eat than pre-packaged food, so I'm still searching for my perfect fit. I may just be a paper girl and that's okay too.
Hope your week was much more productive than mine...
I love that this blog is a collaboration and gives readers a look into the health and fitness journeys of more than one woman. We each have our own lifestyles, preferences, and struggles, and I hope you can relate to one or more of us as you follow our progress (or lack thereof!). But it has bothered me for a while that it seems to be confusing keeping straight whom is posting what. It says at the bottom of each posting "posted by..." but you won't see that until you're done reading a post, if you even notice it at all.
So, I've created the little pink daisy icon at the left, and I'll put that at the start of any post by me, Janet. Then you'll know who I am. Or something. I hope.
Anyway, I was saying the other day how I haven't updated my ticker in a while, partly because I'm refusing to step on the scale and let that number define how I feel about myself for that day. I know I'm making positive changes, however small. I will step on it eventually, but for now, no.
Regina suggested I create some new system of measuring progress, like how my pants feel. Well, this morning I tried on a pair of pants that I had picked up at a garage sale right toward the end of my previous job (late spring, early summer). They ended up being a little snug on me (you know how garage sale clothes buying goes), but I kept them, because they were cute, and I figured it was something to strive for. This morning, the pants fit. Just fine. Yay!
I'm fighting a little cold, so I haven't been doing much exercise. Plus, I've found that my new "work at home" job is awesome in a lot of ways, but not so much for squeezing in my lunchtime walks. Theoretically, I set my own schedule and could do whatever I wanted. But I find it works best for my life if I work 9-5. And I'm entitled to a 1/2 hour lunch, paid, so I tend to take that time to ummm...eat lunch.
But, I've realized that sitting at my computer for hours on end is sucky and not good for me, mentally or physically. And I've come upon my new workout plan. I'm trying to get up every hour or so and do some sort of little exercise. Today I danced wildly to one song on the radio (one perk of working alone is that no one can see me act crazy), did a set of lunges, did a few yoga stretches, and walked a short distance down the street when I went out to get the mail.
It's working for me in terms of schedule and mental focus. I'll keep you posted on how it works in terms of actual fitness results!
I spent my New Year's Eve differently than I usually do this year. Partly because I've been sick, so hanging out in public just didn't sound fun at all. We were home, on our sofa, snuggled with pups, playing Mario Kart and watching movies on Netflix. It was really kind of awesome. We toasted the new year and were in bed at like 12:05.
But the biggest difference was in what I ate. Or didn't eat. And what I resolved, or didn't resolve.
I cannot remember a New Year's Eve when I wasn't stuffing myself with every forbidden food on the planet, because TOMORROW starts the diet!!!! Every December 31st in memory, I've had that whole "Last Supper mentality" because I knew, after that date, I couldn't eat THAT food anymore.
I'm not thinking that way lately. I've been reading Women, Food, and God by Geneen Roth, and I just finished reading Unbearable Lightness by Portia de Rossi. The messages behind both of these books have really started to sink in with me lately. There is no food that is forbidden. And making them forbidden is really the problem.
Geneen Roth says, "Eat what you want when you're hungry and feel what you feel when you're not." If we're eating food when we aren't physically hungry, we're trying to satisfy some other need. I do that a lot. And I haven't completely stopped doing it, but I'm trying to feel my feelings and at least be aware of when I'm trying to use food to make me feel better.
Portia de Rossi started down the path toward anorexia and bulimia because of unrealistic diets forced upon her as a child model. Once she stopped labeling foods as good or bad, and started giving her body what it really wanted at any given time, she reached a normal, healthy weight, easily. She even stopped going to the gym and started walking her dogs and riding horses instead. She made a comment in the book something like, "How often do you see fat people walking dogs? And how often do you see fat people on treadmills? Which one seems to be a healthier thing to do?"
I'm far from the end of my journey. And I haven't updated my ticker in a while, mainly because I know I'm making healthier choices for my body, and I don't want that number on that scale to make me feel good or bad about myself.
But I know this much. I didn't pig out last night. And I didn't diet this morning. And I feel really good about that.
I consider writing blip-its about myself a form of torture, but can talk about my interests, plans, dreams, and ideas for hours. I'm 37 years old, hapily married and mother to one human child and two dogs. My life, career, and eating habits are ever-evolving. I would like to lose about 30+ pounds and still be able to enjoy food and life.
I'm 41 years old, single, and I live with two dogs and two cats. I'm experimenting with semi-vegetarianism and recently gave up diet soda. I work from home, hate sports, love junk food, and would like to lose about 50 pounds. And win the lottery.